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First and foremost, I would like to thank all of you who shared my last social media post. Since I write this blog on my own time, leaving comments and sharing my posts are important for the continuation of this blog. On Facebook, shares (in lieu of “likes”) are more helpful with wider distribution of posts.
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Today’s post will be a little different. Instead of covering a specific topic, I will provide a general update instead. It’s been a few months since I posted an update on our family.
We are still quite busy, and trying to get on top of things is an ongoing challenge. In particular, the fall months are filled with appointments. Since the accident, which was followed by the pandemic, I had to cancel and postpone several appointments. You may remember the topic of “secondary losses” from trauma / bereavement, a subject I briefly introduced a few months ago.
Effects of the accident and the pandemic
Last year, our focus and energy were absorbed by what was most important; Adélie’s recovery, our time with the kids, our grief journey and our mental health. Additionally, we were overwhelmed with appointments and paperwork related to the accident. As a result, I had cancelled several regular appointments, and postponed many others that we’ve been wanting to reschedule for a while.
For myself, my focus is now on trying to regain my health. I have recurring appointments for immunotherapy (allergy shots), other medical appointments, and finally rescheduled previously cancelled dental appointments. I’m expecting cavities (which I don’t usually have), since certain elements of my dental care have not been up to par (e.g. flossing); yet another item overlooked as a result of the accident.
When our children’s health becomes our primary preoccupation, in addition to grieving, unfortunately our own health is likely to suffer. The same goes for exercise, which can be nearly impossible when you don’t have energy. My heartache, due to depression, initially caused me to lose weight, which lasted for 10 months after the accident. I’m now trying to find enough time, energy and motivation to get in better shape.
An appointment with the hairdresser is also on my list; it’s been 2 ½ years since I went. I’m apprehensive to go since it usually involves chatting. My situation is not very rosy to talk about, and what if I suddenly start to cry?
School for Adélie
As for Adélie, she just started junior kindergarten! During back-to-school week, we met with all her health workers and school staff to ensure a smooth transition. Even with school, Adélie is expected to continue her occupational therapy, speech therapy and two physiotherapy sessions every week. Unfortunately, health restrictions and the school board’s position are still unclear. We are still awaiting a response as to whether Adélie can receive services on the school premises.
Adélie is qualified to take paratransit, which is helpful, especially once I return to work. In October, we are planning another constraint therapy for Adélie, which will further reduce her mobility. Paratransit will be even more essential.
For his part, Maxandre is restarting hockey, playing for the Blackburn Stingers. I think it will be good for him.
At the renovated arena in Blackburn Hamlet (Lois Kemp Arena)
Obviously, it hasn’t been easy for Maxandre the past two years. Not only was he traumatized by Zackaël’s death, and nearly lost Adélie, the pandemic really added to his anxiety and isolation. Stuck at home, he didn’t have his brother to play with. The big age difference with his sister doesn’t allow for the same type of play that he and Zackaël enjoyed together. He adores his sister, but she can be very demanding and prone to tantrums which can be very challenging for all of us.
Last year, although Maxandre had a great teacher, virtual school was not for him. When we kept Adélie home from daycare, which was at least half the time, it was even more difficult for all of us. At the same time, we had to support Maxandre and encourage him to stay focused.
On this point, a few years ago, it was suggested Maxandre be assessed for ADHD (Attention-Deficit / Hyperactivity Disorder). We have suspected ADHD for several years, but once again, the accident turned our plans upside in so many areas. Plans to set up an assessment were postponed; our priorities were no longer to diagnose ADHD, but to support a child who also had PTSD.
Maxandre is very open on this subject, and I made sure that he was okay with me talking about it. The assessment is scheduled for this November. Following the results, we hope to receive tools that can support Maxandre and our family.
Funeral monument at St-Joseph cemetery
Last fall, I had started looking at options for a funeral monument. In the months following the accident, it was something that neither Carl nor I felt ready to take on (not by ourselves anyway). Finally in the fall, I posted a message on my Facebook wall which basically stated that I was overwhelmed, and needed help with some things.
I am grateful that many people came forward and replied to my post. Specifically, for the funeral monument (which was my top priority), I want to thank Crystal and Noémie who both offered their help with this difficult task. Together, we were able to start the process, which provided answers to some initial questions I had.
Over the winter, Carl and I had more time to think about want we really wanted. Since the kids were with us all summer, we decided to wait until school began to make an appointment. Last week, we finally made an appointment with a funeral monument company and ordered a headstone.
Even though it’s been 22 months since the accident, it is still painful for us to go to this type of place and choosing what we want. The monument will be installed in St-Joseph’s cemetery in Orleans, where Zackaël is buried. We hope it will be ready for this fall. Once it’s installed, I will share a post in case anyone is interested in visiting the cemetery.
I am currently working on a slideshow about Adélie’s journey. After going through many photos and videos, I selected the ones that best highlight her recovery. Creating the slideshow is time-consuming, especially since I am also adding text to it. The last step will be to add some music. All of it will undoubtedly make a beautiful memory for her and all of us.
In August, we had a photography session that Adélie won in a contest. I will share the photos in my next blog post. Adélie is wearing a magnificent princess dress, so you won’t want to miss it!!
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